Today I am very restless, again. This is so unusual for me. Generally I am very content being home all week. However, today I am very ready to go. Jacob still has pretty nasty diarrhea. He has been laying around most of the day. Leaving the house or having company was not an option. Jeff had to go to his parents house. He took Jonah and Jackson along for the ride. That was such a blessing. Juliet, Jacob and I took a nap. It seemed that in a blink of an eye we were back up from resting and Jeff and the boys were home. I am feeling burnt out. I think just because I have seriously wiped Jacob's behind a million times today, broke up a bazillion arguments, and randomly found food scattered around the house I am needing some alone time. So, Jeff comes in from his parents house. I was sitting at the kitchen counter. I mention to him that I really need a break and I think I may leave. I think my actual words were, "Oh my gosh if I don't leave this house right now I think I will hurt someone. I don't think I have ever needed to get out of this house more!" I secretly wish I had videotaped the whole conversation. His response was, "I mean, where would you go?" My response, "I am just really having visions of me driving to Starbucks, getting a really good cup of coffee, going to Bed Bath & Beyond, doing a little shopping, going by Meijer and picking up a few things." Jeff's response........nothing. He said nothing back. I didn't want to continue talking about it. I thought I had stressed my urgency in the whole situation already. I really wanted him to say, "honey, you really do need a break. Why don't you leave for awhile and I will take care of things here?" But instead I didn't get anything. So, being somewhat of a drama queen laid my head on the counter, forehead down and started sighing, like really loud. The kids and Jeff kept asking me questions. Like my behavior was normal. I think at one point I even popped back up, only to immediately return to head on the counter. Nothing. Then finally Jeff says, "do you think you could get up and help me make dinner?" Yes, I can make dinner. So, I never left the house tonight. I sucked it up, and helped make dinner. Jeff did put the kids to bed. I think it was 9p and he took the boys upstairs to bed. We watched a movie he borrowed from his parents house. Putting the boys to bed was really useless. The three of them watched the entire movie with us from the staircase hidden behind a wall. After the movie, for the hundredth time we took the boys to their room. Guess what I found? I half eaten box of Girl Scout cookies hidden under Jackson's bed. It really never ends. I have to mention the movie we watched tonight was Open Range with Kevin Costner. I really enjoyed it. It was very entertaining. I don't think it was meant to be so funny, but I thought it was. At the end of the movie Kevin Costner's character says to his soon to be wife, "if you are not going to do what I say then how is this going to work?" I laughed so hard. I said that line to Jeff like a million times before he went to bed. He was finally like, "okay, Jackie, got it." It still makes me laugh.
Tomorrow I am hoping I will finally leave the house to do some shopping. Jeff is working all weekend. But I have already prepared him that either tomorrow or Sunday I will be going shopping. I was thinking about this week. Monday I took the kids to story time at the library. Tuesday I took the kids to preschool. Thursday I took Jacob to a doctors appointment. That is it. I am so boring. I really need to get out.