Anxiously waiting...

When I started this blog I was just wanting a place to vent express all the great moments of motherhood.  I hate unloading on my husband when he walks in the door from work.  However, being a stay at home mom that happens often.  Since the boys have started kindergarten I feel like I am in a new chapter of my life.  Gone are the days of diapers (and accidents at the worst moments), spending hours on the floor with babies crawling everywhere, and days that are so routine but never quite the same as the day before.  (Typing that almost made me tear up...almost) Things are so different now.  Although my kids are still young (boys are on the verge of turning 6, Juliet is 3) things have just significantly changed.  The woman inside me, not the mom is needing a new venture.  I have this insane anxiety/anxiousness for the next chapter in my life.  Can I dare say it out loud?  Working.  I mean working for an income.  It is really on my heart right now more than ever.  I am consumed by it right now.  Praying day and night for something. What Lord is next?  The last two Sundays our Pastor has mentioned not being on our schedule but God's.  Sometimes we think God should moving, hearing us and responding now.  This is an emergency, right?  God where are you?  I know with everything in me he has more plans for me.  Plans to prosper!  I am confident in my faith that He has a plan.  I am waiting for it to unfold.