Woah!

Dinner did not go according to plan.  The whole afternoon did not go according to plan. After our play date I needed to go to the store.  However, my son Jackson slept for nearly 3 hours.  Generally, I would be praising the Lord.  Today I had things I needed to do. When he finally woke up my sister and brother in law (who I work for) called and said they needed me asap.  Dinner was NOT healthy.  I am grateful that my sister provided dinner.  But it was pizza.  Okay, so dinner didn't go as planned.  I am already over it. Each day will have its challenges.  I am not changing our lifestyle to feel guilty about everything.  It is what it is.  I did go to the grocery store late tonight.  I am definitely feeling overwhelmed.  I am feeling pretty good about the staples I will be eating.  But I feel tremendously overwhelmed when it comes to what my family will be eating.  Everyday my hubby eats the same things.  Breakfast is poptarts and instant packs of oatmeal.  Lunch is either leftovers or tuna.  I need to find something to replace the poptarts.  Right now I feel like I am starving him.  Then, I have the huge challenge of feeding my four young kiddos.  Meal planning, budgeting, preparing and cooking are overwhelming.  Shopping tonight my cart looked as if it belonged to someone else.  Half of the items I have never purchased.  I have done so many different diets.  I have even successfully completed a 10 day cleanse that eliminated nearly every food group.  But tonight leaving the store I felt like I have met my match.  I guess in the past I never changed my family's diet.  I would buy my 'special diet' foods.  Then, I would still fill my cart with all the norms my family consumed.  So, the whole process wasn't so scary.  I am just going to continue to take baby steps one day at a time.  Tomorrow I plan on going to health food store to get some items the grocery store didn't carry.  I need pb2, raw cacao powder, raw nuts, Himalayan salt and some other items.